The Bright Side of BPD

I just finished another course, this time on positive psychology & resilience. Btw, you can do it too, if you’re into learning something new. Which got me thinking a bit more about the bright side of pretty much everything. So, you think that your borderline traits are only negative? Think again. 😉 Strengths and qualities … Read more

Living With Unstable Sense Of Self

Having borderline personality disorder and CPTSD can be interesting to say, at least. They both share some symptoms, yet they are different. And neither of them is pleasant. I do have some issues, yet I still don’t look or behave like some sort of a lunatic, you might imagine from the movies. At least this … Read more

Let’s Talk About CPTSD, Part 2

I wrote about CPTSD already. There is so much more to say about it, but I’m too tired to write these days. After several years of therapy, I’m still getting the feeling that I’m not making any progress and that there is no hope for me at all. This is a common thing for CPTSD. … Read more


Hi, I’m Maja, and I come from Slovenia. Lampelina is my nickname since 2006 when I first started blogging. I’m a former nurse, midwifery dropout, certified in many other areas, and I’m still learning to live with complex post-traumatic stress disorder (CPTSD). It can be very similar to borderline personality disorder and even the professionals … Read more

Creative writing – The weirdest story I ever wrote

I’ve spent quite some time at Coursera recently, learning mostly about the psychology. But I’ve decided to give creative writing a shot too. This was one really fun experience! I’ve been introduced to creative writing during my psychotherapy last winter. It was therapeutic, but not much fun, because of the topics. I’d recommend it to … Read more

What makes you feel alive?

I was thinking about this a lot. What made me feel alive, what still does and what else could. Several things can make me feel alive: nature, photography, writing, solving problems/challenges, novelty… some of the little things… There is also one thing that makes me feel alive A LOT – love. I’m doomed, for that … Read more

In love with your therapist?

If your answer is yes, then you’re definitely not alone. It happens more often than you’d think. Usually this isn’t the “real” love, but rather transference. We can easily see the therapist (or a doctor) as an ideal friend or even more, because of the way therapy works. I’m glad it happened to me too … Read more

Coping with suicidal thoughts

I try to focus on the bright side of everything as much as possible here. But the fact is, life has many dark ones too. I struggle with suicidal thoughts on a daily basis sometimes. They are usually a part of depression. But not in my case. This post will be focused on people with … Read more

The benefits of being a highly sensitive person

Being a highly sensitive person can be extremely painful, but also extremely beautiful. It doesn’t make you mentally ill or awkward, you’re just different. But you might indeed be more prone to anxiety issues, depression, etc. People with BPD are usually HSP too, but the reverse is not true. There are some differences between the … Read more

Let’s talk about (C)PTSD

Many of us have PTSD or even CPTSD. But too many people are quiet about it, suffering in silence. I did it as well, but I’ve learned that talking doesn’t hurt. It can even help if you’re surrounded by the right people. Thank you dear readers for being one of them as well. I’ve collected … Read more