What Does CPTSD Feel Like?

CPTSD

For me, it feels like my heart is breaking again and again, without the ability to ever get better. This is not the truth and is “just” a feeling. I need to ground myself often to come out of my illusions and stop breaking my own heart all over again. This might sound easy but … Read more

Just Another Day With CPTSD #2

dissociation

I hit a pause on my therapy because I’m afraid of getting too attached to another therapist. I also probably already live a better life than many people with CPTSD in some ways and I’m very grateful for that. I’d like to stay here at least for a while. I still struggle in some areas … Read more

Healing From CPTSD – Books And Blogs

These are the books and blogs that helped me the most on my CPTSD healing journey (so far). I hope you’ll get some ideas for yourself too. John Sharp – The Insight Cure Elan Golomb – Adult Children Of Narcissists In Their Struggle For Self Mark Manson – I find his stuff very useful, from … Read more

Just Another Day With CPTSD #1

In case you were wondering why I was blogging less… I’ve had an idea about posting less of my personal thoughts because I never wanted to have a blog where it would be so much about me. And yet here I am. It is what it is now… I question myself a lot. Some days … Read more

Coping With Emotional Flashbacks (PTSD/CPTSD)

I don’t want to sound too dramatic, this is just how my mind sounds in a moment of stress. Unfiltered. It’s the end of the world in there… Oh boy. This one hit me hard. I’ll go through a job evaluation program very soon. I’m wondering how on earth will I spend 2 weeks around … Read more

Let’s Talk About CPTSD, Part 2

I wrote about CPTSD already. There is so much more to say about it, but I’m too tired to write these days. After several years of therapy, I’m still getting the feeling that I’m not making any progress and that there is no hope for me at all. This is a common thing for CPTSD. … Read more

The Sweetest Pain

Do you know the feeling when you miss someone so much that it hurts? And at the same time, you feel joy, when you think about this person’s happiness… It’s a weird combination, this pleasure, and pain. So many stories created my brain. I still want you inside, inside of my head stories so happy, … Read more

The Right To Die With Dignity

dying with dignity

Warning: a sensitive topic I don’t want to encourage anyone into anything stupid or reckless. If you’re in danger of hurting yourself, please ask for help – you can do so here. I wish I could have the opportunity to die when I want and the way I want, which is through euthanasia. Just one … Read more

If You Could Be A Song, Which One Would You Be?

your song

Do you ever ask yourself this question? Which song describes you the most? Which melody flows best with your body and your mind? Which song do you truly feel? Is it just one song, can you see yourself in several different (or similar songs)? You can explore yourself through this exercise and learn something new. … Read more

Welcome To My New Old Blog

mental health blog welcome

I’m very happy to announce that this blog was successfully moved to a faster host. Hooray! I apologize for any inconvenience that might happen over the past couple of months, due to some technical issues, which made reading and publishing a bit harder. Special thanks go to Gregor for helping me with the moving and … Read more