Having borderline personality disorder and CPTSD can be interesting to say, at least. They both share some symptoms, yet they are different. And neither of them is pleasant.
I do have some issues, yet I still don’t look or behave like some sort of a lunatic, you might imagine from the movies. At least this is how my side of the story looks like.
I can change my mind and moods a lot. Making any kind of decision is also hard for me. I thought it would get easier with the age, but it’s really not.
I overthink things very often. This is not so bad, because I don’t do so many impulsive things anymore. The same thing is also preventing me to live my life more spontaneously and enjoy moments a bit more.
We all need some spontaneity, right?
My therapist said it’s normal to switch from one to another extreme during the therapy and that this might also be a good path to more balance eventually.
Remember the post Getting better is not always better? This is what I’m talking about.
It’s really annoying that I still see myself as ok in one moment and as a completely worthless and stupid person in another.
I’ve (l)earned my 6th certificate yesterday.
I might not be the very best when it comes to consistency at “normal” things (like staying in a regular job for a longer period of time), but I’m still good at some other things. Despite my obstacles with unstable self, and other drama in my head (no less real for me though). Learning is one of them, exercise another and there are some things I’m still working on, I’m just not consistent enough. Yet.
What are you most proud of doing consistently?