It took me many years to find the one I’ve been searching for all these years. And it’s not who I imagined it to be.
I’m not talking about a prince on a white horse, nor am I talking about a man or even another person. I’ve fell in love with myself.
Damn, how narcissistic this sounds. But I’ll let it be this time, because some amount of healthy narcissism is actually good for you.
I’ve never been at such peace with myself as I am for the last couple of days. I’ve been working on myself a lot for the last couple of years and this change didn’t came overnight. I also can’t say where will my mind go tomorrow. It changes itself a lot.
I’m not the best version of myself I imagined I’d be, but I’m moving towards my goals – even though it’s with the speed of a snail. ¯_(ツ)_/¯ And this is finally good enough for me.
I can love another person just like it is and accept it with all of their flaws. But I wasn’t able to do this with myself for a long time, if I ever truly did. I’m not 100% there even now.
I can finally relax again with me and just let myself be. I was already there before, but for some reason it wasn’t good enough, so I needed some kaos to put me back and hopefully even a step forward. Everything is good for something, I’m not sorry. But I could have spare myself lots of pain if I’d just stop being such perfectionist years ago.
Yeah, there there.
This is not the end of my journey though. Gotta love my life and all these new beginnings, even though it’s not easy. Today we’re all moving into one together.
I wish you all a happy New Year! And to stay healthy. <3