I already posted something on this topic. But without my thoughts. I can finally add something to this.
I like to be surrounded with people who see some use in things I do. Who doesn’t? And I like to do many different things.
I needed 6 years to find this combo again.
I’m a full time volunteer at the moment, yet I’m working mostly all days. You can see a part of this work here too. You can see only the writings, but you can’t see many other things I do for this blog. Even when I don’t write for a week, I do some work here or elsewhere, so I can write about something other than just old trauma and me giving up on life.
How it all began?
I’ve had a great job with some amazing people around me. I enjoyed the work so much, I’ve been working even during my post-hernia recovery. I’ve been working from hospital and later from a spa, where I had some further rehabilitation. I worked when I wasn’t even able to sit, so I needed to work in a standing position. It really didn’t bothered me – not working would be far worse. If you can’t call this a passion… I’ve been avoiding some personal issues and running into work, I admit that too. But the work was really great overall (featured image is from our team building).
We all need the right amount of right ingredients to met our needs. Or we aren’t happy with what we do. It’s how we are all designed. This is what my job was for me, it was just right.
In order to get rid of my antidepressants and try a drug free life, I quit this job. I’m not sorry for quiting, because I’ve been pretty useless human being for quite a while. The bad part was that I’ve lost the connection with the team too. Why exactly I did this… Because I thought they won’t want to stay in touch with me, because I was out of use for a while. Well… people don’t work in this way. Most people like to help when asked. But yes, you need to ask.
This was the part I’ve been avoiding for many years and I’ve been extremelly miserable for very long time. Just because of this “tiny” thing. Asking for help.
Please don’t do the same mistake I did and ask for help when needed. Ask as many people as you need to. It’s not nearly as embarassing as it feels and you can spare yourself years of unnecessary suffering.
Today, I’m doing prety much the same things I was able to do in my best job I ever had. There’s just another tiny thing. I don’t make any money. Yet.
I came from the point when I wasn’t able to feed myself properly, read, write and do most of the normal things, many of us take for granted (yes, this is what a multiple drug withdrawal can do to you).
I’d say I did one hell of a job to come this far. Even though, I still don’t make any money, my work isn’t worthless. And what is most important, I really enjoy it and some people even benefit from my love to work. The last part is the greatest and most important to me. This is why I went into nursing school when I was in my teens and started my career as a nurse (I’m not working as one anymore though – I’m a “WordPress girl” and overall geek for over 15 years now).
I’m grateful for being surrounded with so many great people again – one of them being you too, dear readers. Your comments are very important part of of this blogging and my personal journey, because you all helped me and this blog to grow.
Thanks for being a part of my team. <3
What about you? What are you passionate about?