I struggle with suicidal thoughts on a daily basis sometimes. They are usually a part of depression. But not in my case.
This post will be focused on people with BPD, but the topic applies to many others as well.
What does this mean in practice? Normally when something bad happens, you deal with it and go on with your life.
What does it mean for borderlines? The end of the world. Literally. When it hurts, it hurts really bad. It’s the darkest part of being a highly sensitive person.
This is something you can’t change. It will happen again. Suicidal and other thoughts come and go. But you can change your response to them.
It’s good to be prepared for this kind of situation and have a crisis management plan made ahead.
This goes for everybody who is more prone to find himself in some crisis (depression, anxiety, addiction, PTSD can all lead you there – just to name a few).
It’s good to write down the plan or even rewrite it a couple of times, to remember it easier.
You also need to acknowledge at which stage of emergency are you in order to plan the proper response.
You don’t have to run into a therapist’s office in the case of mild sadness, while you shouldn’t be alone with yourself while having some strong suicidal thoughts.
It’s great to talk to a therapist or other professional about the plan that suits you best.
You need to make your own plan, because only you know what works best for you. I can only tell you what works for me.
I’d call or meet a friend, write down some thoughts, or find some other people to talk to online. Sometimes just laying down in quiet or listening to some guided mindfulness also helps. Sometimes I’d go for a short walk or a hike. It depends on the situation and the time of a day. Sometimes I just think about many possible options to die here and now and I’m just wondering if I’m really ready to go. Last but not least, I call a therapist, if needed.
What about you, do you have your own SOS plan? What does it look like?